Syril versus time in a bottle 2

Now I know, why she is not talking to me. She doesn't even text me or reply to my text messages. She does not even answer my calls.

I know the reason now. She like somebody else.

Why did she asked me to be patient? Why? For what?

I know life isn't fair, but I'm trying to be fair to everyone. I need to know why? I need answers.

Syril versus My Sassy Girl

It's been days since she sent this message, but we haven't have a good conversation about this. We haven't even met yet after that. Our communication is just text messaging and calls.




I tried to observe what's happening between us. She changed her blogsite weblink and she didn't tell me the real web address. She rarely text me. She started to care a little bit but as time goes by it seems to be she doesn't care at all. These are just my point of view, I'm not sure if that what she really thinks.



I don't know what's bothering her but I want her to know that I will always be here. I always wanted to hold her hands.



I've been following her Tumblr account. I'm not pretty sure but it seems to be that she's still inlove with her ex. She seems to post things about him, which often hurts alot but there's nothing I can do. Sometimes she seems to post somethings about someone. Not sure who's that for. What I like most is it makes her happy.



I told her before, if she will be inlove to someone not me, I'm gonna tell him some things he needs to remember, let's say 10 rules (my sassy girl style, coz she's like my sassy girl and I'm the dumb boy):


1. She likes to write/blog, she just started doing it so please support her.

2. If she ask you to Google something for her, find it for her, she badly need it and she'll appreciate it, don't worry.

3. Make sure you know alot about movies and music, she like someone who can sing with her and someone who knows some movies lines.

4. When you call and she sings over the phone, stop whatever you are doing and listen, she rarely do that so appreciate it.

5. Text her always, she needs someone who cares for her everyday. This is a must.

6. Make her laugh. Always.

7. When she looks like she's mad, she's not actually mad she just being sweet but take it seriously. I usually touch her chin when she's mad.

8. Don't be late on your meetings. She will always tell you that you are late for the rest of your life.

9. When you eat together, look in her eyes, its really amazing. She eat a little, so encourage her to finish her meal, and she will finish it. She will not get mad.

10. Don't let her sweat dries up at her back, she will start coughing. Take care of her. She gets sick easily. Always remind her to take her medicine if she's sick. Take good care of her. She's a baby yet she will always be a woman to me.

Syril versus time in a bottle

I got this message/letter from her....
She wanted me to be patient...
Does it mean that I have to wait? I'll be keeping this time in a bottle so I can spend it with her.

please, just be patient. I’m so afraid to care about someone. I know it seems like I’m this strong girl who can get through everything, but inside I’m very fragile. I’ve had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I’m afraid of is shattering.


im not that strong.. i want to appear strong, confident and courageous but i know in the inside im not.


I have to put up walls to people. Not because I don't want them around but i just want to see whose willing to cross or break that wall for me. i know people care but to what extent? when they know that you're sick? when they know you'll be dead? why can't they care for you everyday? does it really have to take a romantic relationship just to have that "care" you really wanted???

Syril versus the drunk tattooed man

last night i'm with a couple of drunk people; there was only 2 person who did not drink beer, me and my chinese friend crystal.
all that I hear last night was "bottoms up!" and lots of killer jokes...
there are 3 races on that long table, filipinoses, chineses and a korean... amp, lakas uminom ng korean! we have boys, girls, boy-girl and girl-boy :D

mixing up those people will give you tons of laughter enough for the week.
around 11pm nung naisipan namin magkanya kanya na...

I'm with the drunk tatooed man, arjey... he is known ladies man... babaero.

He told me a lot of things about the other life.. lovelife. sa lahat ng sinabi nya isa lang natatandaan ko...

sa lovelife, 2 lang ang klase ng tao ung nasasaktan at nananakit.

I dont believe on his words right away but they made me think. its the reality.



which side are you?



i still believe in true love and he is just another drunk man.

Syril versus imprint

i think nobody is reading this blog so i decided to write about something... something boys don't usually do lalo na online, hahaha! walang na kasing masabihan.

you know the know the word imprint right?? geeesh... twilight101 yan.

anyway, let me tell you something about her.. she, whom i imprinted. :D

she's petite.. perky most of the time, pero kapag nag senti ganun ganun na lang... she is smart kahit di nya aminin...

i like/love every inch of her... you can take it literally, inch per inch of her.

i think she knows that she's my daily dose of sugar... you know what sugar do right??? indi? e wiki mo; it sweetens life. :D

hay, hope she read my DEAR FUTURE.

i know na this will be painful... taking my dosage everyday but i know in the end, i'll be running out of my

sugar.. mahirap kasi di ako bida sa script na pinili nya.

i asked her today if she remember something, a promise that i made. she said she dont.sad but i cant blame her... she dont have to remember it since di nga ako ang bida.. but i remember it.

I made that promised last August 28, while inside the train.. around 6:20pm.

Nde.Im just leaving.Gus2 q itry ung kabilang bhay

pede ba na bago mo itry ung kabilang buhay alagaan muna kita?

Pan0 q mla2man na maaalagaan m0 q?

just let me and I'll show you

Ok. Ok.  Pero pg d m0 q naalagaan, pwd n q sa kblang buhay?

di kita pababayaan

Pramis?

with all my life - i promise.

cheesy ba?? pero i mean every word na sinabi ko and this is me keeping my promise. i hope she knows how much i love her and how much i care.

Syril versus Friday the 27th

Just like before, di na naman tuloy.... so sad.

:(

Syril versus the chocolate man

I really hate this day, they moved my schedule on Saturday to 4am to 1pm... geeeesh!

I'm not a robot!

Myth - DOTA versus GF

"Sumosobra ka na dotA haaa! Love kita pero inaagaw mo na boyfriend ko!! Ang landi mo dotA. Bahala ka hindi na kita bati! Umayos ka haaaa" - Facebook

I saw her status in Facebook; she is biggest crush in Facebook, anyway, I burst into laughter when I saw her status and made me think, what's with DOTA? why girlfriends hated DOTA?

Boys, teach your girl to play DOTA and make the world a will a better place to live in.

the butterfly effect

If there is something that I can do at a cost of something I always wanted to do something like in The Butterfly Effect.
I want to go back March 2002.

Volcano - Damien Rice

Don’t hold yourself like that


cause You’ll hurt your knees

well I kissed your mouth, and back

But that’s all I need

Don’t build your world around

Volcanoes melt you down



And What I am to you is not real

What I am to you, you do not need

What I am to you is not what you mean to me

You give me miles and miles of mountains

And I’ll ask for the sea



Don’t throw yourself like that

In front of me

I kissed your mouth, your back

Is that all you need?

Don’t drag my love around

Volcanoes melt me down



What I am to you is not real

What I am to you, you do not need

What I am to you is not what you mean to me

You give me miles and miles of mountains

And I’ll ask

What I give to you is just what I’m going through

This is nothing new, no, no just another phase of finding

what I really need is what makes me bleed

But like a new disease, Lord, she’s still too young to treat

Volcanoes melt you down

She’s still too young what i am to you you do not need is not real

I kissed your mouth

You do not need me

trash talk

someone asked me; what's with the candy wrapper? I told her, it's nothing for some but to someone, it's something.


Some people does not know what they have. They just didn't get it that somebody wants it and will do anything just to be with it. People should learn how to value things, even a candy wrapper. You may treat the candy wrapper like a trash but to someone, it is all that he got.

think about it

comprehension is not a requisite of cooperation

migrating birds

"Bird migration is the regular seasonal journey undertaken by many species of birds. Bird movements include those made in response to changes in food availability, habitat or weather."

As humans, we must also move to another place we see that all is moving and changing. We must not stay in a single place, change is constant.

Why do we wish to linger when they are not paying any attention? Why do we stay when there is no hope? Why love someone who is not interested to you? Why stay when they already moved?

Sent

Dear future,


Hi…
I never imagine meeting you along this journey.
I never imagine going this far with you.. we travelled through distant desert, we swam the troubled waters and crossed number of bridges.

I know this is hard for you. I will never ask for anything, but if you can spare me a little time that is most appreciated. I just need your little understanding so we can share our thougts. I little bit of love would be alright. I know, I cannot plant full grown tree right away.

I really like the way you look at me - you made me feel that I’m not broken since you made me feel brand new.
I like way you smile at me - you made me feel that impossible is nothing, you made me believe.
I like the way you talk to me - it feels like we can read each others mind.
I like the way to laugh with me - it made me feel that you can read my heart.
I like the way you get mad - it seems like I’m eating a black chocolate; bitter sweet.

With all of these things, I feel like I’m not alone even we’re distant apart.

Please, if you don’t want me - don’t draw me in because everyday, I keep on finding a new way of loving you.

Please take me if you may coz I know someone sent you to me. I swear I’ll be strong. I want to see the things that you see, I want to learn the things that you know.

Life is short, complicated. I want to share every each moment of my life with you.

red pill

I took the red pill - it means I accepted the truth; the things I knew, what I am knowing and will be knowing. The things that happened, that are happening and will happen.


I accepted the truth; the things you have said, the things that you are saying and will be saying. The things that you shown me, what you are showing and will be showing.

I took the red pill to stay in wonderland and feel no pain.

Would you believe if I say, “I’ve seen it all.. I saw it all in your eyes.”